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Foundations and Proximity @ 05:49 pm
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artistic
artisticCurrent Music: Case of You - Joni Mitchell
It's spring. What else could that mean othen than the Co-op painting project?
I chose six paintings this year. As usual, we have a Haring and a fish painting. Two other pictures - a large coffee cup and a nouveau cat, round out the simple paintings. Then I dove into the deep end of the painting pool with a Mucha Nouveau girl and a Huyssen. The Nouveau number is, to say the least, complicated. She is positively lovely, however, fluid and idealized.
Co-op Saturday was positively splendid. MY college kids were in for the event and it was wonderful to see them and they did a fab job. I was pleasantly surprised that our good friend Dave was in from Texas. Matt and I can't wait for him to move back to Cincinnati this year. It's great to know people that speak my language.
So, I'm in my groove and back at the canvas 60 hours a week. My theme this year hearkens to my early childhood and my burgeoning realization that creativity was what made me tick. I'm perfectly at home and comfortable in my own skin in front of a canvas painting away. Matt stops by on occasion to ask if I need tea or a smoke. Sometimes he plays silly videos. The other night he loaded up the League of Gentlemen's radio broadcast. It was good. The painting I was working on required a rather large palette and lengthy mixing. I drove home with the sun coming up feeling satisfied in my work.
It dawned on me that Matt is absolutely capable of frivolity but he is not frivolous. His frittering is useful and not just killing time or prattling about. He doesn't settle for proximity and banality over substance. A constant in my life since childhood has been the thought, "I don't get it." Matt has marveled at the same thing. Life is short and there's a lot to learn.
Joni Mitchell once wrote, "I am a lonely painter, I live in a box of paints." On frequent nights she keeps me company while I paint and her plaintiff lyrics paint pictures that occupy that part of my brain that would fret over things I cannot change and it frees me to fall through the hole in the canvas and find my foundation and "home".
I am not lonely. I don't really live in a box of paints. I am fortunate to have a few real relationships and people that speak my language. Painting gives me time to think and to evaluate. Time in front of an easel gives me perspective. I've allowed some relationships to devolve into situations where I feel used and taken for granted. Mea culpa. I suppose it's good to see the road not taken and then return to what's real and ultimately, where I belong. It may be a smaller world I find myself in but at least the colours will be genuine.
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